What truly amazes me is other people’s obsession and commentary about MY weight loss journey. Believe me this is as big of a journey as you can take! Weight loss is difficult and maintaining has been more difficult. I’m a food person and my life has always revolved around cooking, trying new restaurants, exploring different ethnic foods and trying all the ice cream places I can find in the tri-state area. At one point I was so thin and felt deprived of everything I loved. Although I felt pretty confident in my weight loss success I didn’t feel like my true self. When losing an extreme amount of weight, you have a bit of an identity crisis and your weight can begin to define you. Weight loss isn’t going to solve all of your issues and insecurities. Yes, I have definitely put on some weight but for you snarky, narrow minded people commenting (you know who you are) worry about yourself and your own journey before putting someone else down. All this crap about women lifting other women up is a farce in my opinion. You gossip, you compete and a lot of that is dependent on weight and material objects ; both of which does not bring complete happiness.
So, yes now I have leaned that I can lose the weight and will get back on an exercise routine because it makes me feel better. Pilates gives me strength and biking gives me a great cardio workout. The endorphin release is a real thing and probably has kept me off of anti-depressants. I’ve learned that balance is important in this journey and that deprivation of all the foods you love can be miserable. People have said that nothing tastes as good as skinny feels but trust me I’ve done the leg work. Eating a delicious meal is equally satisying as fitting into a size 6 jeans. I’ll never be back to 130 pounds again but somewhere in between and finding my comfortable weight and current weight will be my next focus.
Life is too short and food is too good to define yourself by weight. Enjoy the journey, keep moving and I’ll see you at the local ice cream spots!